All the screaming, diving onto the bed,
Punching pillows, tears staining the sheets,
My face, the softness of my heart
Spilling over with gut-wrenching confusion.
All the hiding – afraid to go to the laundry, to go outside,
“It’s okay. It’s okay,” paint a picture-perfect family
Online; it’s easy to defend but at some point
I knew it was all desperately pretend; hoping.
Hopeless romantic turned shrewd,
If I’m vulnerable, they’ll know how to kill me,
I cannot try, I cannot push, I cannot fight-
It’s crushing me, all the strength to rise.
Separate, detox, and oh the darkness
Clouded any sense who I am; lost
Fighting through each day; will I make it?
Yearning for the dawn of a better era.
Here I am, getting older, yet still so young,
Perched on a rock, the only smooth spot
Among barnacles, wind knocks my hair,
Sun sparkles off the ocean’s surface; can you smell it?
Life buzzes, the circle of life-
The “Yes I can” and the “Yes I did!”
The old me collapsed; here the new me sits
Beneath baby blue skies and feathery clouds.
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